Hiding in plain view. ((open to anyone!))

[chiron_survivor]

She didn't flee to the Nexus immediately. At first, she was just in shock. The cylons were back, except this time, they were running the government. A "coalition" government, but everyone knew what that really meant.

It didn't make sense to her. They hated humans. Why not just destroy them and be done with it?

Her boyfriend assumed it was some sort of elaborate revenge plot, or a way to salvage the aspects of humanity the cylons considered worth keeping. He wanted her to agree with him, to be red-hot about it, too, but Adia was too distracted. She kept seeing Caspar's face -- the one she thought she knew -- and comparing it with the ones she kept seeing, wherever she went.

She could tell it was bothering him, that her attention was elsewhere.

Later, in the middle of the night when she knew she wouldn't be missed by any humans, and prayed she wouldn't be missed by any cylons, she PINpointed to the Nexus.

She sat at a Nexus terminal and typed out a message for anyone to read.

The cylons are on New Caprica.

Only then did she cry.

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[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

Adia blinks. "You... you could, couldn't you?" The question is, what would Adia be able to do with that information? If the cylons really were staging some elaborate revenge scenario, what could she do to stop it?

She rubs at her eyes. She'll worry about that later. "Okay. You can try that. It won't hurt you or anything, will it?"

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"No. My voices never hurt me." April closes her eyes and concentrates. Using Adia's emotional state and her feelings on the cylons to tune her voices to the situation. She pushes hard, looking for any insights that her powers will allow.

((your call if she sees anything, and if so what))

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

But her powers do sometimes give her trouble, Adia thinks, but April seems in control of things, so she sits quietly and waits.

Trying to understand a cylon's motivation is a tricky thing. They aren't quite a collective consciousness, but each model is very similar in how it thinks, and all those thoughts are pooled together every so often, like rivers running into the ocean. It can be overwhelming at times.

Some of the intentions are noble. Forgiving. Some are impartial. Some are downright nefarious. There is just as much hate as love. But no plans for extermination. Not yet, anyway.

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

Their voices are all the sam,e it will be difficult for April to determine which voices belongs to which cylon. Even if Adia asks. And she won't push too hard... knowing the balance of using her powers now better than in the past.

"I sense that some are noble. They have forgiven."

"Some are impartial."

"And some are not to be trusted. But I do not sense any plans for extermination."

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

Adia's anxious look eases a little when April finally speaks again. "Well. That's something." She shifts in her seat uncomfortably. "I think I can guess which ones are trying to forgive. One of the Sixes -- the sixth model -- is in my lab now. All she talks about is God." Clearly, that doesn't make her feel any better.

"The one that died. The one I was close to. I think he's still out there." She looks down at her hands. "I hope he's one of the noble ones."

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"I lost Clark a few times. But I always tried to get back to him. And him back to me."

"Perhaps yours will be a noble one because of his memories with you. He would still have those?"

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

"Yeah, but..." Clark and April are meant to be together, in Adia's mind, but she doesn't know how to say that without sounding silly. "...I don't think we had what you and Clark have."

She frowns a little, considering. "I think so. Their is a different cylon who was also a sleeper agent, and she still has all her memories of the time she thought she was human."

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"It took time to develop what Clark and I have. Maybe you have something to start with. You are a beautiful woman Adia."

"And if he cherished your memory, maybe he is still out there. Working to protect you."

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

"Do you think?" Adia asks hopefully, before sighing and rubbing her eyes. What is she thinking?! To even consider the possibility of finding Caspar and rekindling what they had... "I have a boyfriend," she says, rather firmly, "And Caspar is a cylon. That ship has sailed." More quietly, she adds, "Maybe he hasn't forgotten what it was like to be human, but he was a cylon before and he's a cylon now. He's going to side with his brothers and the other models."

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"Clark is a Kryptonian. There are other Kryptonians emerging in our dimension. But his human experience... made him different."

"Do you not think that Caspar won't remember what it was like to be human?"

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

"But Clark isn't..." she sighs and starts over. She hates disagreeing, but she really wants April to understand. "Krypton wasn't at war with humans, were they? Humanity didn't create and then enslave Clark's people. I mean, maybe a Kryptonian wouldn't normally care at all about humans, but there isn't a history of hate there."

She looks away, unsure. "He might remember, but it's not the same as being. As soon as he realized he was a cylon, back on our ship, he didn't act like himself." She swallows. "I thought he was just scared at first, but now I don't know."

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"There are Kryptonians on Earth that want to take over. To start a war."

"But I see your point. There is a history. And maybe all cylons can't be trusted. I just know what I saw... some do want to be forgiven."

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

Adia relaxes a little. "Sorry. I know you're trying to help. When Clark told me about Zod and the others, I saw the parallels between his situation and mine." She fights back a wave of self-pity. "It's just so hard seeing his face again. There are lots of copies of his model, but they all just look through me. And if he's out there somewhere, he hasn't tried to contact me or give me a sign." She sighs. "I just... I thought I had moved past it. Past him."

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"No wonder this is so hard, when you see him everywhere, it is not letting you move on."

"I wish I could detect him for you. But their voices are so similar..."

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

Adia shakes her head a little. "No, it's okay. I don't-- I don't know if I even want to know what he's thinking." Maybe he's ashamed of how he left her. Maybe he's afraid that she hates him. Regardless, he hasn't made any effort to contact her, and she certainly isn't about to go looking for him.

"It's not that important anyway... the future of humanity is in the hands of the cylons now."

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"I am sure that is what the cylons would like you all to think... but the only ones who have the future of humanity in their hands are humans themselves."

"Humans adapt. They overcome. They are strong. Just like you."

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

"I want to believe that," Adia says quietly. "But the cylons adapt, too. They didn't look like humans when they left the colonies 40 years ago."

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"Maybe things can work out between the two races. If not... you are always safe here. In the Nexus."

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

"Maybe..." And maybe Zeus himself will fly down from the heavens and set things right. Still, the reminder of the Nexus makes her feel a little better. "I hope things work out on your world, too. I know Clark is really happy on Earth. The clones could make new lives for themselves."

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"We hope to convert a few. But there are those that have no chance... that will cause us trouble."

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

"I'm sorry." She bites her lip, then adds, "I'm not... I'm not really in a good state right now, but I offered to Clark that I could talk to them, if it would help. I know what it's like to lose my planet and have to start over."

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"That would help. I will definitely offer to those that want to start over. We don't have that experience."

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

"I hope you never do. Your Earth is... it's just wonderful." It's the happiest recent memory she can think of, being a bridesmaid in April's wedding.

[slayers-desire.livejournal.com]

"And you are always welcome there."

[chiron-survivor.livejournal.com]

"Thank you, April." She looks down at her PINpoint. "I think I'll just stay here a little while, then go back. I don't want anyone to miss me." That, and if she went back with April, she'd probably never return.